MIA

Sorry friends I have been MIA, I had a very busy weekend and it's time for some honesty, I haven't lost a single pound in a week.  I am completely frustrated.  I ate really bad this weekend, tried to get back on track today and didn't do so hot today either.  I want to scream!  I want to cry, I want to give up I feel very defeated.

Whew I'm glad that I got that out.  I haven't wanted to blog because I have been feeling like a failure and how can I talk about losing weight and diet and exercise if I can't even stick to it myself?

That's the beauty of it though, I can fail and I am going to fail sometimes, and so are you it's the nature of this beast called weight loss.  I have spoken about not beating yourself up, moving on yadda, yadda.  All of that is true!  BUT I don't always do it, I feel bad when I don't lose, I feel like a loser when I eat cake or pasta or someting I know I shouldn't.  I feel just like everyone else who is struggling and again sometimes I fail.

So this weekend I did what I wanted to do, I have eaters remorse and now I am having to suck it up and continue on.  Everyday I have to face food and overcome it.  Unlike a drug addict my addiction is something I have to do, I can't just walk away from it or just not have it in the house, you have to eat, how horrible is that?!?!?!  Like if a crack addict HAD to have crack everyday but only a little bit.  It's tough.

But I am determined to succeed!  I don't want to die because of food and I won't.  I found this weekend that I felt like crap because I ate like crap and put crap in my body and I am paying for it. 

So here's to failures and success's and hanging on when times get tough, I am here for you if you need to talk just leave a comment having a community to lean on when the times get tough is invaluable and I appreciate you all being there for me.

P.S.  Even though I didn't lose I also didn't gain so that is a plus in my book!

Valinda